No words can explain how much I miss you my dear mom. It’s like I am in a battlefield since the day you left.

I miss checking on you everyday. I miss going to your room every morning to check if you had your coffee/breakfast. I miss going to the place where you stay when it is lunch/dinner time and watching your favorite TV shows, I miss seeing you sleeping, I miss seeing you in the kitchen, I miss seeing you doing household chores, I miss your guidance and words, I miss our talks, I miss your smile when you see your grandchildren, I miss seeing your sweet moments with daddy, I miss seeing you happy and proud, I miss your face and voice, and I miss your unconditional love.

These past few weeks without you have been very difficult. Even when I am doing something you are always on my mind. But I am trying to be strong for my family just like what you are always telling me.

How I wish this is only a dream and that when I wake up, you are still here with me.

I still look for you like what I always do. I still go to your room, go to your home garden, go to the kitchen and laundry area, go to the living room and to the other house thinking that you are there. All I want is your embrace and your guidance like you always do. All I want is to see your face and hear your voice again. But I know that will never happen.

I cannot explain what I feel when I saw you stopped breathing. It was like you took all of me. I lost myself.

The days are hard and the nights are harder. I feel like I was robbed. I feel I am not complete anymore. I feel like I am not the same person I used to be when you are still alive but I am trying my best to find myself again but it’s so hard to do this without you.

I hope that I made you proud. I hope that you bring my love with you in heaven. I know you are in a place where there’s no pain. I know you are in a place where you are always happy and you do not have to worry on anything. I know we will meet again, but this doesn’t stop the heartache I always feel and this doesn’t stop the tears from falling.

I know heaven is beautiful and that you are with God. I know that you are with your your mom and family members who passed away. I know you are with your friends and are able to go out and are enjoying heaven. Please watch over us especially daddy.

I will teach my kids the values you thought me. Together with my wife, we will raise our kids to be responsible, hardworking and God fearing people.

I am going to miss you every single day for the rest of my life. I am very lucky and proud because you are my mother. I will never get over the loss but I know with your help I will learn to live with this. I’ll love you always and I’ll miss you forever.

Lesson learned: We do not know when our time will arrive that’s why we have to live our life to the fullest and show and tell our loved ones how much we care and love them. Time is not on our side. We cannot stop what is destined to happen. We do not know what will happen tomorrow so we must be grateful and enjoy every single day of our lives.